Tuesday, June 10, 2008

Critical Update

Dear Readers,

The sudden onslaught of FanFiction comments have inspired me to write this general update to answer the questions: "Where the hell have you been?" and "What the **** happened to updating soon?" Personally, I wish I could say something super interesting like, "I'm moving to Australia!" but unfortunately, that is not the case. Although--Hello!--How cool would that be?!

The sad truth is: I have been working on "Second Chance"--a lot. That is, a lot more than I should be working on it. I really need to just churn out the remaining sections of this chapter, and then the rest of the story (five chapters total!) and move on with my creative writing. For your benefit, the following is the updated section list of Chapter Two.

1 Seiji & Lory: Final Call (Status: Third Draft/Complete)
2 Kanae & Kyoko: Disappointment (Status: Second Draft/Complete)
3 Yashiro: Decisions, Decisions (Status: Third Draft/Complete)
4 Seiji & Sho: The Contract (Status: Third Draft/Complete)
5 Seiji & Kanae: That's What She Said (Status: Third Draft/Complete)
6 Seiji & Kyoko: Writing Angst (Status: Second Draft/Incomplete)
7 Kyoko: Lingering Moment (Status: Second Draft/Incomplete)
8 Kyoko & Maria: Just Today (Status: Third Draft/Complete)
9 Ren & Yuji: Real Men (Status: Second Draft/Complete)
10 Ren & Kyoko: Flight or Fight (Status: Second Draft/Incomplete)
11 Kyoko & Ren: One to Ten (Status: Second Draft/Incomplete)
11 Yokiko & Lory: Overcoming (Status: First Draft/Incomplete)
12 Kyoko & Ren: In Revenge (Status: Unwritten/Incomplete)
13 Kyoko & Seiji: This is Goodbye (Status: Unwritten/Incomplete)

As you can see, I've re-written some sections up to three times (Sad!) and there's really only two sections left unwritten. The re-write for all of Ren and Kyoko's sections are driving me mad!

That's all for updates.

Tuesday, April 1, 2008

Beta Readers Unite!

To be honest, I don't use a lot of the features on FanFiction.net, but I have to admit, some of them are pretty nifty. They created a section for "Beta Readers," where writers can sign up to be Betas (editors, really) if they meet the minimum requirement of 5 published stories, and you can pick a Beta based on the section that they registered for. It's genius! I mean, there's a definite charm in being able to "scope out" your potential beta, see what they like, what they've written, and then ask them to be a Beta-reader based on your preferences with relatively little fear of rejection--I mean, they're volunteering, for pete's sake!

(I have to admit, though, I am a little skeptical about those writers who've written over 50 stories >.> How much time and care did you really put into writing if you can churn out so many? On the flip side, if you can do that and produce some really great stories, then: Wow. I'm jealous. I'm having hard enough of a time finishing one story, much less able to hammer out three other ones. No, I'm not bitter. Much.)

Well, the point of this post is that I've been very productive lately. I've been happier with my writing style than I have been in months, and there's just a handful of sections that I need to revise/write before I can publish.* While I'm working on that, I'd like to have two betas (or up to five, if people are willing) to catch any mistakes in canon, spelling, grammar, translation, and general style of writing.

If you have any experience in being a Beta reader and you wouldn't mind giving me a healthy chunk of your time, I'd be grateful for your editing prowess. Mind you, I'm not trying to be picky, but I'm not looking for people who are going nuts over my half-year-plus hiatus, looking to read whatever they can. I'm looking for genuine help, advice, and a pair of critical eyes. It would also help a lot of you know how to use Microsoft Word's Track Changes feature.

I don't know how many people take FanFiction as seriously as I've been taking it, but I genuinely do believe that writing Second Chance has really given me an opportunity to become a better writer. Hopefully, it shows in chapter two! Let me know if you're interested, via email or comment. You can also find me on the LJ Skip Beat! Community.

* I'm determined to publish soon. I refuse to be the FanFiction writer that takes over a year to update, and I refuse to drop this story. I'm going to finish this one, dangit!

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

!@#$

Skip Beat Chapter 119 is out! By Franky-House =D

I almost screamed out loud on the last page! I kid you not, my friends, I almost screamed. And, feel free to laugh at me, but I swear I cried within the first 10 pages. Dude, I almost can't believe--I am such a sissy.

UGH. But I feel so much better after reading that chapter. I don't know what it is exactly, but my attention started wanning in the past few volumes. It's not because Skip Beat doesn't appeal to me anymore, it does (I wouldn't have written this FanFic if it had disappointed me at some point; weird, I know). I think... that I kind of viewed the last two story lines as "fillers," after Dark Moon... Not that they were. I really don't consider them as fillers, because you do learn a lot about the characters.

But I was getting impatient for something more.

Like the last page of chapter 119 =)

Once again, I rejoice: Skip Beat! is so good.

Thanks to everyone at F-H!

Friday, January 25, 2008

Useless Deadline. Useless!

Uhm.









If I were Japanese, I would prostrate myself before you and apologize profusely. But I'm not.

So I won't.

Instead, I'll do what I do, and look up with you with big, fat, sad, pathetic eyes and cry. Yea, that's what I'd do.





I'm sorry ;.;





You can skip to the bottom to get to the bottom line. Otherwise, humor me:





I can't get myself to the point with this chapter that I like it. Even if I have half the chapter finished, ultimately deciding whether or not to publish it is like, having bipolar disease and having one personality really not care (GIVE ME FOR FAN COMMENTS) and the other personality care too much (NOOOOO. DON'T LET THEM YELL AT ME ;.;)

So I whined a little bit to anyone that would listen--mostly the dogs--and then I slept on it. I have officially decided that Chapter Two is still not good enough to publish. Not even half of it.

Which, makes me really sad.

Really, really sad.

I don't know. I feel like I've worked a long time on it; altered my schedule just to get it finished; and waited impatiently to get to the result of the matter--only to fall flat on my face! The quality of the manga-esque writing style as dropped quite a bit; and now that the story is getting along a little bit further, I'm risking the chance of losing you guys with too many new characters (If you watch LOST or HEROES, you can probably relate), really bad descriptions LOL It's just a snowstorm of problems.

And the sad thing is, I'm not even over exaggerating. So sad. Boyfriend says, Deadlines don't work for writers. They have them, but they don't really work. >.> I replied, (after four years of college papers) Deadlines work--but you just get crappy writing. Really, crappy writing.

I think I'm just going to keep pushing onward with the chapter and try to hit my original goal--all 25 sections. It'll be like, 60 pages, at least. But at least I'll be satisfied with what I'm doing--and not just out to get my trophy reviews.

In the long run, I think you guys will be happier. I mean, like, what, 3 people know about this blog and my alleged deadline, right? Ok, maybe five. So, whoever doesn't know about the blog/deadline, and how I didn't meet it, it won't hurt them, right? RIGHT?!

"Right," I say to myself, overindulgent and completely satisfied.






Bottom line: I'm not publishing today. For anyone that knew about the deadline and really can't wait, and would like to read a crappy rough draft and yell at me and then wait longer to expect for more, you can drop me a comment here on the blog, or a message via FanFiction.net and I will willingly send you a copy of what I have so far.

Otherwise, I will keep chugging along and hope to have something I can really be proud of... with a tentative deadline that I will not say =) But let's just say, "Soon."

Wednesday, January 23, 2008

It's Not Looking So Good, Guys...

So... this self imposed deadline of mine... is totally killing me.

It's like writing a paper, but worse, because it's self-imposed. My boyfriend keeps telling me it's my own fault--then he turns around and tells me that "I can do it." The schizo.



Anyway, I have to say, there are times when I feel like I'm catering to a whole bunch of teenagers and I tell myself that I need to move on with my life. I've done it all--scanslate, translate, create fan shrines, image databases, FanFiction databases... written FanFiction. For pete's sake, I've lived a good Anime/Manga-fanned life. Ok, I never cosplayed, but hey, good enough.

Guys, I'm 23. I'm writing a FanFic. Catering to a whole bunch of teenagers >.> Or well, that's what I imagine.

But, I don't feel bad. Not too bad.

When I started writing FanFiction, back in say, eight grade, I joined this wonderful community of--gasp--Sailor Moon FanFiction writers. They were brutal. Bloody brilliant, but completely brutal. I found out later that they were 22 to 30-year-olds, taking their time (probably avoiding their own college/grad student papers) to help me flush out my writing style. Huh, imagine that.





What the hell--

I'm here to write an update, not reminisce >.>





So... update... yea.

I guess what I'm here to say is... I've lied to anyone that's read this blog. Well, lied in a good-bad wall. The good is that I will update on Friday. The bad is that I've decided that I'm only going to publish half of what I wanted to... Remember how some of you guys were saying Chapter One was too long? Well, if I give you all of Chapter Two, it'll be over a hundred pages long--and as great as I think I am--uh, not--I don't think you guys would appreciate it very much if I didn't at least try to think about splitting it into two separate chapters.

S0, as I promised, you will be getting your Chapter Two. Or at least, half of it. And I'll have to force in a Chapter Two-Point-Five (or just name it Chapter Three). I personally don't feel like it's a complete update... but who wants to read one hundred pages of FanFiction? >.>

Am I being overly ambitious?

Heh. You think?

I also want to rewrite Chapter One. But I'll spare you guys.




=( My poor Skip Beat! co-Fans. I'm sorry I abuse you so...

Tuesday, January 22, 2008

To Napris: A Serious Response to a Seriously Awesome Review

Dear Napris:

You are my hero. Literally. ^-^ So I made this self-imposed deadline to force myself to finish chapter two, and it’s essentially killing me. And you, you wonderful you, you! wrote this review on a day I wanted to but off my hands ^-^;

So, as a thank you, let me obsess over every word you wrote to me and get out the horrible anxiety I have building up in me as the deadline draws ever closer...





wai! your ONE chapter is like ONE volume of Skip Beat. Enough to satisfy english-translation/scanlation-waiters. xDD

Yay! =D YAY!!! That’s what I was going for!

Wait, let me just say really quick, that everything that you wrote would satisfy the biggest ego a writer can have; and you actually liked it too! I thought it was amazing how you managed to boost my morale and enthusiasm by pointing out my strong points and my weak points (all of which I agreed on, by the way). This review is a real gem--and I am so very grateful that you wrote it <3

I really liked how you kept everyone's role in tact and in character. everyone's appearance has meaning! And i can imagine nakamura-sensei's penstrokes and words mesh in together with yours. The length is very much enjoyable, yes. :D Kyoko's tendencies to be sensitive around Ren and the way she avoided him was portrayed well. Fantastic use of words when describing facial expressions and inner turmoil, especially Ren's, when he was berating Kyoko about her revenge on Sho!! Loved it, really. I loved the description of Lory, it was good.

Glad you liked the length; you’ll find something like it in Chapter Two. I tried very hard to keep the characters in check! It’s really important to me because if the characters change in anyway from what we know them to be, then it’s not really Skip Beat! anymore, is it? ;.; And that comment about matching with Nakamura-sensei’s strokes was too, too kind (it makes me feel all tingly inside!)

I wish a thousand times over that I had paid even more attention to the Ren & Kyōko scenes. I definitely plan on rewriting a handful of the stuff in Chapter One (maybe if I have time before the deadline) just because... I know I can do it better...? I’m glad I got a little better grasp on Ren than I did on Kyōko, but I’m sure we both think the scenes could be written better.

=) I had a lot of fun writing Lory’s scenes.

Thank you so much for the comments on my writing style. The truth is, sometimes when I sit down to write, I can’t help but think that I’ve totally lost my writing style. I don't know how I did it all those years ago! Now I can't think about anything but the technical side of writing. It feels like there are times that I’m just parroting lines and describing action, without any real elegant style and it frustrates me. So, please bear with me while I’m trying to hammer out my own writing style! But in the meantime, I’m glad that my current style works for this FanFic =)

The only thing slightly lacking is probably the five pounds of comedic relief Nakamura sensei smothers on her stories. If you weren't going for the happy-light-laugh-laugh thing, then it's rahter nicely done. Kyoko's demons have yet to appear in the story, but they CAN get in the way when on paper, I guess, so if you're still planning on adding those little tricksters in, be carefulxD Otherwise, the sort of wacky word style you use now and then can replace the silliness of Nakamura-sensei. :]

I... will probably never, ever be a third as funny as Nakamura-sensei LOL She is freaking hilarious--makes me laugh out loud every time! I seriously look like a fool reading Skip Beat! manga, giggling evilly to myself ^-^ I’m trying to tastefully add in some humor here and there, just to get silly smile-feeling you get when you’re reading the manga. But what I’ve found, is that if I try too hard to be humors, it quickly turns... lame. Heh >.> So yes, I can only add a little heartfelt laughter here and there, and if that’s ok with you, it’s ok with me =)

OH those demons... In my second rough draft of Chapter One, I did write this... weird, emo-like scene with the Demons, trying to put my own spin on that world... but I guess I’ve finally decided not to continue with that plotline. >.> If you could see the story shaping in my head, you’d probably tell me there’re too many plotlines for this FanFiction. Well, the demons are there in the story, not to worry! They’re just very subtly inserted ^-^

Perhaps Kyoko was a little serious when talking about Sho, and a little too sad for my liking. =/ To me, she came across as a cold-macho-IRON-chick when she talks about that person. Except the cold-macho-IRONness is sorta funny, and makes Kyoko appear sort of bipolar.xD But it's okay, if you were trying to get kyoko to appear sort of broken and slightly devastated in front of Ren, to get him to understand. ;]

;.; Yea... ;.;

I totally know what you mean.

My grasp on Kyōko is totally bipolar LOL I had a lot of fun writing the scenes with her and Seiji, just because Seiji is an easier character to write (we don’t really know that much about him!) But Ren. Ren, my love, you are too difficult to portray--and it’s hard, you know? To try and write about his mushy mushy feelings when you know he’s such a hardcore guy...

It also really doesn't help, that at this point in the Manga, Kyōko has grown a little out of her need for revenge--totally concentrating more on her acting skills, her relationships, and her own personal growth. I think the Yahoo! Group or LiveJournal Group was talking a little bit about this... but she's not really as obsessed with getting revenge as much as I portrayed her to in this FanFiction... so if I want to make this work, I've got to add in another scene or something, to show a little more of the back story on Sho... Sigh. So much work... (Sorry about the tangent).

I just... really need to rewrite that scene better >.>

Anyway, I really, really enjoyed your story. And your usage of words impressed me a lot. The way Kyoko interacted with Seiji was funny and had that 'Nakamura' touch as well. It makes Kyoko appear as this funny ball of weird sunshine. =3

Doesn’t she make you feel happy inside? =) I like how you wrote that: “funny ball of weird sunshine” ^-^; She totally is...

Thanks so much for posting another Skip Beat story, and such a heavy, fat one, at that! I can't wait to see more of the story, and I wonder who that blonde-haired person is that made our normally silly Lory upset.

... Oh you know who he is >.> You know.





Thank you, thank you, thank YOU. You really saved me from a morning of writer’s angst =)

Your doting fan,
LyL

Sunday, January 6, 2008

Some Kind of Comforting Update

I'm surprised that there are actually days when I don't check my inbox for new mail. Now, you have to understand that I'm obsessively compulsive about checking email. It's not something that I'm obsessive about just to be obnoxious, thinking that I'll get a new review every two hours or something. No, it's really sadly compulsive. The only thing that gives me any comfort is knowing that other people are just as compulsive about it too... admit it. You know who you are.

So I was just thinking that I should know when a new Skip Beat! volume has been released just by the sheer volume of reviews that I get every two or three days after the release date. Even when I don't check my mailbox compulsively. Like this time, I got five extraordinary mind-boosting reviews--the type that every author needs to get their writing butt in gear. Then I realized, with alarming shock and mortification, that two (three actually) volumes had been released in the U.S. while I've only published one chapter. That's one chapter in six months! Who do I think I am?! J. freaking K. Rowling?! Uh, no?

The point is, I know I'm taking a ridiculously long time to post the next chapter, and I know I shouldn't be--especially for something I've been so engrossed in. Insert excuses here.

Oh, and if anything, I should update just for you guys. After all, the little devil in me says, "Screw perfection. People are impatient! They'll hang you after a couple of months of inactivity." But wow, I just found out that "Second Chance" has been hit up 3192 times. 3192!!! Sure, remove the 360 hits I've contributed to by checking twice a day--it's somehow more satisfying seeing reviews on the ff.net page than it is in my email box--it's STILL 2832 times! And if it's really just you 83 reviewers checking time and time again... you already have me on an alert, so you guys are ridiculous. Just like me. 3192!!!

Anyway, rather than having everyone die out on me or at least start screaming infidelities, I'm going to post the scene index for chapter two here. Don't get me wrong, I love all of you guys. Especially those of you who ardently tell me to take my time. Don't worry--I love you "Update now or ELSE" freaks just as much.

What's listed here are all the scenes that I've decided to complete. It's still in the works (I have to weed out a lot of stuff), but as you can see, it's another lengthy chapter. It's my goal to finish "Second Chance" in five chapters, so I won't ever apologize for length. Just quality, I'm afraid. Which I'm working deathly hard on. I dunno guys, there's just something about these scenes that just beats the living crap out of me. My goal for this chapter is January 24, 2008. Don't ask why, it's just the date. Better than nothing, right guys?

Second Chance: Just Came To Say Goodbye, Love (Chapter Two)
  • Seiji & Lory: Final Call
  • Kanae & Kyōko: Disappointment
  • Yashiro: Eavesdropper
  • Seiji & Shō: Intentions
  • Seiji & Kanae: Misunderstandings
  • Seiji & Kyōko: Writer’s Angst
  • Shō & Shoko: Because I Can
  • Kyōko: Lingering Moments
  • Kyōko & Maria: Just Today
  • Kyōko & Ren: Happy Incident
  • Yokiko & Lory: Destruction
  • Kyōko & Ren: Saved
  • Kyōko & Seiji: Agreement
  • Kyōko: New Places, Same Faces
  • Kanae & Seiji: Deal Made
  • Kyōko & Ren: To See You
  • Kyōko & Kanae: To School
  • Yukihito: Cornered
  • Kyōko & Hikaru: Dancing Keys
  • Kyōko & Ren: To See You Again
  • Ren & John: Just a Picture
  • Kyōko & Shō: After School
  • Kanae & Kyōko: Revelation
  • Ren & Seiji: Favors
Cheers all around to chapter two being posted soon! Happy New Year's!